addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
you don't even know, that i still...
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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are you still the same,
or did you change somehow?
finally it's friday and the weekend's just hours away. don't know how i'm going to survive the next few weeks. it's been such a hectic week... and sometimes i just feel so tired. think people have noticed that. esp at training. hurhur. jiangjiaolian said i seemed different from before i breaked for exams. was quite taken aback by what she said. then i thought about it, and i guess in a lot of ways, i have changed. good or bad i'm not too sure. hurhur. cockle also asked me on wednesday, "what happened to you?", even jeans has been saying that i've been looking very tired. haha. sigh.
you know, i think i'm getting old. i feel so tired! not enough energy to do all those things i could do back in my "younger days". get zapped from doing stuff. maybe it's cos i concentrate too hard. hahaha. very labour intensive.
mmm they've gone off to macs and now i'm left (almost) all alone at training. today i got to training before everyone else, and only finished my workout after everyone else. ahhaha. i'm not complaining. in fact, i think that i get a kind of satisfaction out of being the only one left on the track. it's this indescribable feeling. with the breeze blowing in your face, the lactic pulling your legs down and the sounds of heavy breathing. sweat trickling down your face into your eyes. it's something only a small bunch of people would understand. it's even more rewarding when there's noone to chase infront cos it's a challenge to keep on going. then you play all these mind games with yourself. so that you can phase out the pain. hahah. as sadistic as it may sound, it's actually one of my most favourite things ever.
finished tuesdays with morrie. it's a very very very good book. quite sad how it ended. now i think i shall go scout around for a new book. i'd almost forgotten the joy of being absorbed in a good book.
had reel reading module today. analysed "the sixth sense". and woah super enlightening! i think i prefer this to analysing texts. ahha. ahhh. so nice so nice. we watched 40mins of "psycho" and boy is it thrilling! hahaha. shitty and i both agreed that our modules are very good choices.
i hope alisa comes for training on sunday or else i think i'm going to die. lol. i get insecure when i'm the only one at training. due to my lack of experience, esp in cycling. imagine if i got tumbling down a hill like in the cemetary last yr. omg. bad experience.
mschay's leaving next wk!!!!!!! poohie:( no more funky PE lessons. haha a lot of us hate soccer. but she's a good teacher. she said we're getting richardchee. ahhaha. maybe he'll bring his ukelele and play more rain songs! :D
i really really hope i can sort out my timetable next week. ah i feel so fortunate. to have so many things, so many opportunities, and so many caring people around me.